Kind of on the verge of breaking down. Fueled by coffee and junk, I don't even know why I stay up. Not even doing things I should be doing. Ashamed of myself, and yet, I still stare longingly in space with NO progress. I want to DO, yet something inside, a large rock, a deep lake, a stupid hurdle in front of me stops me, I do not know where it came from. Nothing is complete. Sleeping patterns are all screwed up, everything is.
Night light working overtime with me, again, shining brightly, looking at me doing nothing, wasting time, like what I'm doing now. No motivation, none at all, yes, I'm afraid of not doing well, and yet I'm doing NOTHING about it.
Sick of all this. Tired of just doing nothing. I just have this knack of screwing up my own life.