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my emo moment.

today i experienced the closest feeling to what i think death feels like.

it's so cold that even on such a scorching hot day, the chills sent down my spine caused hair all over body to rise as if zombies rising from their tombs.

I could never fall in love with the dental clinic room. Not even hot dentists could make me look forward to half annually checkups.
Even though the dentist just now was tad nice. he even played music to calm me down, but all was futile, the music was drowned by the noise of the STUPID drill which i detest tremendously.


digressingly, i always listen to what people say and less to what i think of.
too many comments can make me super confused and in the end, i'll feel worse which is what im feeling now.
maybe im just not opinionated which i don't think i am.
please dont try to understand me, i dont even understand myself, let alone let you do the same.
i dont like listening to opinions.
they come like knives being thrusted into my heart one by one.
i like being myself.

oh.. to add the all the depression which is building,
im fat and ugly... and people are going to say im not.
because you like me.. that's why you guys will try and make me happier.
BUT AH.. if people who hates me see that statement they're SO GONNA AGREE with me.
and what's worse when im depressed i usually pig out, but since im FAT i cant pig out, so hence my depression level will not decrease.

after determined to lose weigh and go on a diet, my dad bought super nice curry rice. AND eventhough i ate uncountable YUMMYLICIOUS bbq crackers which can make my mouth water, i still ate the curry rice which added to my depression.

what scares me is that i had the thought of dying FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE.
Ive been thinking why should we live ah? like for 1 second only lah.. so dont be worried.
i havent worn my sexy shoes yet. so i wont like think of stupid stuff to do.
BUT THEN DUE TO MY depression i dont think my shoes looks as nice ALREADY!!

SEEEE
not so nice anymore!!


my mood aint good. =(
dont ask me why.
and if you're a really good friend. dont say you dont understand why im so emotional.
i dont expect you to know/ask/have anything to do with it.
aiya.
the edges of my mouth cannot even rise like 1 degree.

2 bars of meiji chocolates, 1 box of ferrero in the fridge =(
and i cant eat em.
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TO TOP IT ALL..
if i dont get the grades i want in august, i have to sit for 18 exams in October/November.
=)

im sick of changing my url because of not wanting people to read it.
im running out of urls lah.
you bloody people.
like whatever.

and being the emo, random me
i'll end by adlina's quote " i dont get boys, do you?''


oh yea.

I BLOODY HATE MEN! except hot ones


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if only...
every kg of my fat-full body can increase my happiness... I WOULD ALREADY BE LAUGHING happily!